just to make some noise
to drown out the sound
of the ringing in my ears
keeping the thoughts from getting out.
Thoughts of minor importance
but yielding major consequences
if they aren't satiated.
I see them everyday and I really wish I didn't.
There's a clamor in my right brain.
There's a clamor in my right brain
yelling nonsense and it makes me
dumber that I'd rather admit,
but at least I'm acknowledging
my ignorance to some extent, right?
Well, am I still ignorant?
I wish the left had a bigger voice
but it's sinking further down
into the wrinkles of my mind,
falling deeper over time
until it's hidden.
I fear the worst I've said
hasn't happened yet not morally
but to the people that hold any meaning.
Sometimes I say too much of what I mean
and that's what's fucked up:
honesty is the root of cruelty
that's why it's excluded in society.
released June 24, 2016
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